people change and move on with their lives

okay.. if you've watched fall out boy's recent video, the takeover, the break's over... you would know that people change.. which is like totally relevant with what i'm going trough right now.. people do change.. you dont expect them to like remain the same just year after year.. people get more fun, more boring.. whatever.. but people that change in a way that they hardly communicate anymore or dont even talk.. especially when you know that person pretty well.. another thing is that.. people change in a way that the want more fame.. fame is insanity.. i mean.. whats so good bout it?? its okay for someone not to notice you if you're somhow blended with the crowd.. its okay if you're all alone and sad.. cuz we all have God.. Jesus in our lives.. its our choice to either believe in Him or just dont care..well.. i choose to believe.. if you dont.. its your problem.. if you end up at the wrong side when you die.. and you know me.. it is my fault.. its my fault for not telling you how important Jesus is to us and how He can change lives.. changed lives change others' lifes.. thats why we're here.. its our role and job to bring others to the throne and bow down before the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords.. our Saviour... Jesus Christ.. He loves us.. and when someone loves you, love Him back.. dont you feel sometimes that there's like a hole in your heart? that cannot be patched up by any kinda love but God's? i did.. till i accepted Christ.. now.. that made my heart whole.. God's love is what it takes to patch up that HOLE in your heart.. its God.. what more can you ask for?

whoa... bye bye..

okay.. i so totally dont like DCQS anymore.. i swear... i dont like him anymore.. no more fantasizing over him in class.. focus on school now.. exams are on 20th sept.. so gotta prepare.. and no time to think bout him also.. so whatever la.. so stop all the freaking rumours cuz its over.. get me?!

tasteless pasta..

lst monday.. hmm.. lemme check the date..30th of July.. our class had to cook pasta.. i mean real pasta.. the fake one la.. cuz its not manual.. we made it from the can.. the one that just needed to add water and extra stuff... so we added sausages.. thats all.. and it became kinda too salty.. xD.. so we took the leftovers from the pot.. mised it with a bit of water. and poured it over our dish.. thn it was a bit tasteless.. but it was fine.. thn.. we had to decorate our dish with tomatoes.. we aint designer chefs.. but we wanted to cuz the tomatoes like those kinda decoration they did on tv or in magazines and newpapers.. yea.. but we failed.. so we just hid the ugly part of the cut tomatoes in he pasta.. xD.. and we made lemonade.. we put like appox. 6 spoonfulls of sugar.. and teacher was like.. whoa!! so much arr?! and she had to open a new pack of sugar just for us cuz we thought that the lemoande was kinda unsweet.. actually it was cuz of the dumb dumb tea.. too much ady.. so of cuz too much tea smell ady thn dont have the lemon smell.. thats where the sugar came in..xD.. and the other teams were like.. " so sweet.. later you ppl get become diabetics or something"... hahah... but which kid doenst take alot of sugar?! retards.. ahahha.. and we cooked all that just so that the teacher could grade us on our etika makan.. i was like.." arent you gonna taste our food?" thn she go say.."no lar.. i just wanna see your etika makan".. thn my friend la.. go talk talk talk.. with her mouth full..xD.. but mag was worst.. she burped super freaking loud..xD.. ahahha.. i bet her teams food was pretty nice.. ours was nice too.. but not enough.. our group had 6 ppl.. and hers had 5.. thats why.. we ate... it was good.. and we're cooking tomoro again.. on 6th august..xD.. some dont know what sepinggan lengkap dish.. and we're making pineapple puding.. hahhahah.... so chun.. i cant freaking wait..xD

bye dearest hao ying..

okay.. so my ex-discipler.. pang hao ying.. is going to the States to spread God's word among the kids that stay in like the american squatters area kinda thing.. the ministry there is called metro ministry.. aka. yogi bear.. yea.. i mean.. this thing they're doing.. is a total risk and its okay.. cuz we all know that God is for them.. like said in the Bible.. if God is for me.. who can be against me? so.. she'll be leaving on the 13th august.. which is like next week.. so fast.. i really wanna send her to the airport.. but i have school.. mayb i could like take a day off.. and go with her or something.. she'll be going for 5 months.. coming back mayb a month before chinese new year.. i dot know what i'm gonna do without her.. i practically tell her everything.. like she's my tape recorder or something.. except that she tells me what to do and how it can turn to be something to do with God.. which is a good thing.. and when she used to disciple me.. we used to talk bout everything.. our ciscipleship session will be like for an hour or mayb 45 minutes.. we would be talking bout the Bible and share words from it like bout half and hour.. and thn we'll be talking.. bout school.. ppl we like.. her work life.. infact.. everything you can imagine.. she can even fetch me here and there.. wherever i like.. when she's free.. and can introduce me to all her cosmotots kids.. i met one of them.. Julie.. whoa.. she's Korean.. so chun mehn.. xD.. anyway.. i just wanna tell ya'll who are reading that its good to do god's work.. although its not in your own country and can be outside your comfort zone.. but its for God.. it'll definately pay off..

all over again..

whoa... i dont believe it mehn.. i think i'm in love with you all over again... arrgghh... i've always tried not to.. but i just cant control my feelings.. evertime i see you.. i feel real pai seh and nervous.. nad sometimes i dont even dare say a word.. i'd be too scared.. i never know what you're thinking.. you're really mysterious.. always try to find out but always fail.. and sometimes i pray to God for you to stop what you do.. i hope it helped.. and i dont know if i'll ever see you again after this year.. and i dont know if my feelings will ever change towards you.. its happening all over again..

sorry..i mean it..

hey dude... i heard that someone asked you to read my blog.... okay..so mayb you know that the guy is you.. and i know that i'm wrong..i wasnt supposed to say how you look..i aint tyra banks or whatsoever super model..i shouldnt have judged you.. i'm nobody so say something like that.. i'm really sorry.. and just so you know.. i liked you cuz u had great character.. i felt like totally myself when i was with you.. i never should have lost the chance.. now u wont talk to me.. neither would you even look at me.. i dont blame you... its my fault.. i'm sorry.. u really am.. avoid me all you want.. and i'll do the same.. i know you need the space.. sorry... i'm really super duper sorry... :'(... and btw.. dont worry... i know i'll get my balasan... and hate me all you want.. if you wont forgive me.. i understand that i had just lost a really good friend and a big brother i can rely on.. yea.. this post is just for you.. sorry...

no more...

okay...for the past month..okay..mayb 2 months..i've been like fantasizing over this one fellar.. actually i really like him.. not for his looks.. but character wise.. infact if you count looks..
anyway.. i dont know if it was obvious or what.. but i noticed that he was avoiidng me recently.. he hardly says hi anymore..he doesnt say anything to me anymore..not even on msn.. sheesh.. anyway.. i realised somthing..its better to keep a friendship thn to start a relationship.. especially if you dont know if the person really likes you for sure.. we cant read ppl's mind.. only if i could..xD.. yea..its definately better for a friendship to last long.. cuz i'd rather us be friends and me not liking you at all thn to like you so much but not be friends at all.. ya'll get my point..so i guess we're buddies..xD